Hidden Tears and Broken Smiles

The room is full of misery
The air is full of shit
My brain is slowly shutting down
and I really need to sit

Your words are very painful
Like grating on my ears
they affect my heart, my lungs, my soul
the feelings and my tears

My throat is slowly tightening
its getting hard to breathe
with the ropes that are so frightening
make me want to seethe  

Im crying in the living room
Tears of silent pain
I don't think you have noticed yet
the water that falls like rain

These ever sickening darkening words
are not the ones that break me
but still however they've left their mark
upon the things that make me

To all the people who remained by me
through all this- thick and thin
I have words id like to speak to you
that will make for all my sin

Thank you for everything you've done
Thanks for your support
Thank you for your kind words
Thanks for being that sort

I apologize for my broken ways
and my fake and plastered smile
I apologize for breaking down
and keeping it all this while.